When you get the chance to start looking back it's so easy to vie for those snuggly days, when nursing gave you that moment of oxytocin and your little girl liked to cuddle.
It all appears so lovely and serene.
But the truth is it's so hard when you're in the thick of it and these sweet pictures never tell the real story:
that I was exhausted from not sleeping much the night before,
that I wanted to wean my baby,
that I didn't understand why he wasn't sleeping the night,
that I drank too much coffee,
that my body was always aching,
that their tiny hands reaching out felt so unwanted,
that I felt guilty for feeling so touched out,
that my poor sweet little girl had to grow up too fast because mommy could barely cope,
that I just needed some sleep...
and they both obliged for an hour or two.
Hi. I'm Lindsay. Daughter, sister, wife, mother and collector of useless (and useful) information.