I have a cute, supportive, funny, and intelligent husband who's a really great dad and, most days, a really wonderful partner who compliments my kind of crazy with his own version. But when I was in my early 20's I moved to Buffalo alone, rented a sweet one bedroom with hardwood floors in Elmwood Village and dated this guy twice my age. I thought it was awesome being with someone so worldly and wise, things I just wasn't at 24. He was a perfect bookend to my Good Girl Rebellion. He was divorced, had a vast vocabulary, impeccable taste in music and really, really liked me: what could possibly go wrong!?
Lots. Lots went wrong, including me grappling with some pretty intense, soul crushing depression that led me to some pretty dark days when he turned out to be just as imperfect as I was. But what my time with him left me with was this song that popped into my head this morning when I saw that Graham Nash was performing at Babeville next week. He shared it with me because he understood the darkness I was feeling, despite helping to contribute to some of it. I think he saw me at the "Wounded Bird" and I kind of was.
I want to share the song with you today, because I know more than a few moms out there who are really struggling. I know some of them don't want to talk about it. I know some of them have a great support network, but still feel alone. I know some of them aren't even sure what they can do to feel better. I've got to tell you something that I've witnessed while volunteering for the WNY PMAD Task force and the Postpartum Resource Center of NY: you're not alone. You can get better with help.
I've watched you go through changes
That no man should face alone
If things are looking grim, don't you fucking give up. Come here find and what you're looking for. Hell! Message ME or send me a note on facebook if you need some direction! I'm not a licensed counselor, trained in mindful meditation, nor a religious leader, but I know enough people to help you find your own path to healing. I'm slowly learning that the healing process can take many forms. It's up to you to find what's best for you. But you just have to find it. You just have to find it. Start searching today.
Postpartum Resource Center of WNY
Hi. I'm Lindsay. Daughter, sister, wife, mother and collector of useless (and useful) information.